January 3rd, 2013
I haven’t written in this blog for a very long time! Miss me yet? ;) On December 13th, Noah and I had our 1st year anniversary. I remember the beginning of your relationship like it was a month ago. Laughs, cries, ups and downs. We still got through it all and I hope we have many more moments to share with each other. I’ve never realized how much Noah loved and trusted me until this day. I know...
November 4, 2012
Hello and hi there! c: It’s been a while since I posted on this blog. I made a post on my ipod in September but the stupid app wouldn’t let me post it at all -.- I’ll try to post it sometime soon. Do you know how happy I am? It’s almost 11 months with my boyfriend, Noah! I still remember how it all started. From him teasing me because I didn’t have MW3 to...
August 23rd, 2012
Hello. Why am I feeling like COMPLETE shit? I don’t get why I care so much about friendships. All they do is just come and go, only coming to you if they need something. Why do I do things for people? It’s because I’m nice. I don’t want to signal the wrong message if I don’t do anything for them. If you actually take me for granted, why the fuck should I still be...
August 19th, 2012
Hey there. Well, I had a rough night. Talking on the phone in tears with Noah really made my mood go MERP. I can’t believe how much we’ve changed in only a week. I haven’t seen him since June and our relationship is starting to feel like a long distance thing. Plus, Noah’s going to move and may have to transfer schools. I’m scared. There’s other things on my...
August 18, 2012
Hiya~ Here I go again, reminiscing all of the memories held back from a long time ago. I wonder how long this will take me to realize that I need to let go. Trying so hard to get rid of it all, but today just made it even worse. Why on earth did I message you ‘hello’? I don’t get it. Why do you have such a great affect on me? What did I do to deserve all of this? I don’t...
August 8th, 2012
Why am I the biggest fuck up in the world? I don’t get why I can’t maintain a steady friendship with one of my closest friends. All of the shit I did made me go ghost on my own bestfriend. Now look. He’s fucking gone. He isn’t my bestfriend anymore. I don’t deserve him. Why? I’m the worst friend you can ever have possible. I don’t realize that I...
July 15th, 2012.
Hooray! My 7th month with Noah was on Friday. :) I feel happy because we’ve made it this far. I can’t wait until we reach one year. :$ Well, later today I’m going to get an x-ray done for my teeth to see what I need done for my braces. Ugh, I hope having my braces will nottake that long before graduation. Anyways, I’m contemplating about making an online story about two...
July 5th, 2012
My feelings are at the point where I can’t cope with them anymore. I don’t like feeling this way, especially when there’s a bunch of thoughts in my mind. For example, there’s this one person that just won’t get away. I’m trying so fucking hard to let go, but there’s something about that person that won’t get out of my mind. Also, my own best...
July 5th, 2012
Today’s my birthday, wooooo!
June 26th, 2012
Why am I starting to care again? This is making no sense to me. Why is it so hard to let go? There’s something about you I just can’t erase from my mind. Please, do me a favor and leave me alone. It’s for the best of us. xoxo, Lauren
You're still special to me, no matter how much...
June 23rd, 2012
Summer is finally here. No more school, stress and teachers on your back. Plus, my birthday is in a few days. There’s one thing that I’m afraid of… losing Noah. Sure, we have a great connection between each other. But, it’s slowly dying. We barely talk nowadays, and when we do talk… it’s just simple hello’s and bye’s. I’m nowhere near letting...
June 11th, 2012.
Hello. c; I’m proud to say that I’m going to be a half-sister! :’) Haha, it was hard for me to accept at first, but I’m really happy that I won’t feel alone anymore. :3 My 6th month with Noah is coming up on Wednesday! I’m so excited, but he’s leaving early to go get his vaccination.. bummer. This is just a quick entry because I’m going to catch...
You're mine and only mine
xvahh-nessa: Don’t expect me to ever share.
May 28th, 2012
Noah makes me happy. I can’t find anyone like him. I love him dearly and no one can take him away from me. He’s all mine. Lol, I just felt the need to make a post like this. Haha. xoxo, Lauren
May 27th, 2012
I don’t know where to start. My heart’s starting to hurt because of all of the sad emotions I’m making it deal with. I never thought this would hurt me badly. I’m trying my best not to cry over some stupid little thing. I don’t want to drift away from you, I hope you don’t let go of me either. I’d be devastated and I wouldn’t know how to cope with...
May 22nd, 2012
” I love you, but I hate you at the same time. “ Has it ever occurred before? You had the audacity to tell me that you hate me when you love me? I never want to hear those words ever again. It made me think that I was not the ideal person you would want to be with. Hate makes me think that you don’t love me anymore, or you just want to leave. I lead to many conclusions, but...
May 17th, 2012
FUCK YOU. DON’T YOU EVER EXPOSE ME LIKE THAT. I’M GOING TO LITERALLY MESS YOU UP. Ugh, why the hell did you have to post a picture of the shit I gave you?! I DON’T THINK IT’S NECESSARY… let alone you live farther and a lot of people will talk shit. PLUS, you have a girlfriend. You’re so fucking clueless. Do you want you girlfriend to feel insecure? YOU LITERALLY...
May 13th, 2012.
Happy 5 Months to my one and only, Noah Pontino. <3 Or Captain Noah.. Like what my wife says, LOL I love you sooo much, babe. :) TOGEDA 5EVAA!!11!!one!!!11!
May 11th, 2012.
Ha, I thought I’d never be this pissed off before. It’s our 5th month on Sunday and you decide to go skate? Ugh, the fact that my dad was willing to THANK you for staying with me and treat us both for dinner. It would’ve been perfect and it would actually give you the chance to finally meet my dad. Whatever, I bet you don’t even know I’m mad at you.
May 8th, 2012
I’m happy that my drawing of two roses is on display. :3 I had to stay after school just to do my essay because I was falling behind. But, I’m back on track. :) Overall, it was a good day today. c;
If it was only easy for you to realize what I've...
Sigh, if only.
May 6th, 2012.
It’s to the point where I can’t explain my feelings. I can’t tell anyone either because of what they will think of me. I really need to let go but, I think it’s the memories is what I’m holding on to. It’s screwing around in my mind. It’s for the best. xoxo, Lauren
April 14th, 2012
These thoughts are screwing up my feelings and they’re going through my head. Having that deep talk with my dad was fucking crazy. It’s like he knew exactly how I felt. Gosh, why did he question about you? You’re out of my life already. He made it seem like you were the perfect person. But, you’re not mine anymore. I shouldn’t even be thinking about you anyways. What...
Fuck yo feelings! - April 9th, 2012.
I don’t know why I care. I don’t know why I’m even waiting for you to even say hi or even talk to me. Just fuck it all. I hate how everything just fucking dropped without any closure. Yeah, I shouldn’t even be thinking about you. I’m already with someone better. But, is it true that whenever you still think of someone, you still held on to the feelings? Or is it the...
February 14th, 2012
Hey guys! I haven’t written in here for so long! :( I’m super duper sorry for that. So many things gotten in the way. But, I’m here to update you! :) Well, exams were over in the first week of February. I think that I got a pretty good idea on how exams work now. But, in the older grades, they take at least 3 hours :S That’s crazy! Anyways, I’m in semester two now. My...
February 1st, 2012
Hello guise. :) Yesterday, I finished my Science exam. What a relief. It feels like a weight has gone off your shoulders. Now, all I need to do is my Math and French exam. How exciting! Oh my, I can’t wait for second semester! My classes are English, Religion, Art, and Geography. English and Geography are my live classes. Damn, can’t wait to see everyone. :) Well, me and Noah are...
January 24th, 2012
Hey guise! :3 So, today I finished Part One of EQAO testing! Now, just one more to go. Oh my, exams next week. Am I even ready? I’m not even done my Science ISU yet. I’m loafting so bad on that thing and it’s due on Exam Day 1. Ah, fuck my life. Oh, I also need to take the French Oral Communication Test. I want to get it done and over with, but I’m also scared. :/ Well, I...
January 21st, 2012
Hey poopies! I’m super duper sorry for not writing for such a long time. Exams are coming up soon and I really need to study! EQAO is coming up next week Tuesday and Wednesday. I don’t know if I’m ready for it yet. It’s easy and all, but it’s scaring me how each test is only 1 hour. I’m scared that I might not finish in time. :/ Well, last night, I almost lost...
January 11th - 12th, 2012
Hello! :) I’m sorry for not posting for a day. :S High school is getting to me and I’m extremely busy. Plus, I can’t type as fast because I have a gauze around my wrist and hand. Yeah, I don’t know what’s happening with my arm. It’s usually swollen and stuff. Hope I get better. :/ Well, tomorrow is me and Noah’s first monthsary. LOL yayayayay. :) But,...
January 10th, 2012
Bonjour! :) Today was an okay day. :) Just the fact that I bought a stupid patty instead of pasta for lunch. :( Ugh, food from the cafeteria is disgusting. But, I only buy pasta on Tuesdays and Thursdays since it’s my favourite kind. :) How irrelevant to what I’m about to say. So, you know. People have been asking if Noah and I have kissed yet. Well, today.. it happened. Hehe, it was...
January 9th, 2012.
Hello! :) Back to school! Oh my gosh, it was such a pain. :( I don’t know how I’m going to be ready for exams in 3 weeks. Overall, It was an okay-day today. :) I already got so much homework from my 3 subjects. Science, Math and French. Sheesh, none of my teachers love us. Haha, at least I’m done most of it. I mean, Science I’m done but I don’t get two questions. :(...
January 8th, 2012 ~ around 2
Hiya! Sorry I wasn’t able to post yesterday, I was so hooked on COD since my mom and dad bought me a new tv and I moved my ps3 to my room. Ugh, just watching tv gives me headaches since I’m not used to it yet. :/ Anyways, I’m back to school tomorrow and I finally get to see Noah. :) Hehe, I really miss him and his hugs so much! Oh my gosh, I’m still stressing on this...
January 7th, 2012 ~ Midnight
Aloha! :) I’m making this message on my iPod since my laptop’s being really stupid right now. Anyways, 3 more days until school starts and my sleeping schedule is still fucked up. :( I really need to start sleeping earlier than I should. I didn’t go to bed until 5-ish and I really need my hours of sleep. Speaking of sleep, I had the most weirdest dream today. So basically, I...
January 6th, 2012. ~ around 4
Bonjour! :) Fuck my life. 3 more days until school and I’m still up. This is fricken crazy! :( I guess this one will be short. I’m going to set my alarm at like 10. So, I will be able to change my sleeping patterns quicker. Well on the plus side, I GET TO SEE NOAH IN THREE DAYS. <3 Lauren = Happy Unicorn. :) Teehee, I can imagine my face once I see him. I’m just gonna run...
January 5th, 2012
Haaaai guise! :3 Damnit. I woke up at 2pm. My sleeping schedule is completely fucked. Sigh, I didn’t go to bed till around 5am. I’m so screwed for school on Monday. Man, my eating patterns are weird too. I don’t have as much food as I would usually have on a normal day. People should know I’m a fatty. :3 I guess I’ll be doing my Science ISU today. I have nothing...
January 5th, 2012 ~ Midnight
Aloha! :) I’m feeling really bad for Noah right now. He called me and he was crying so hard because his dog is really sick. He kept on telling me how his dog is too young to die, how it all just happened so suddenly and how his dog is his bestfriend.Also, he has to feed him by hand since Toby doesn’t have the energy to and he can’t use hind legs. When he told me this, my heart...
January 4th, 2012
Hello there! :) Today’s such a gloomy day. :( I woke up around 1pm and started off the day with a headache. Ugh, I hate not having enough sleep. I didn’t go to bed until it was almost 6. Damn. My sleeping schedule is totally fucked. The reason why I’m making this entry is because 2 people who I was really close to, ended up changing into people I wouldn’t expect them to...
Guys with dimples are fucking cute.
January 4th, 2012 ~ around 3
Bonjour! :) Today was sort of a productive day. :) I have 3 more questions until I’m done my Math ISU, which is a very good thing since I basically loafted on it. After I’m done that, I’m going to get a head start on my Science ISU. I’m done at least 4 pages of it. Thank you Lord. <3 So, what am I doing now? I’m making sticky notes for Baby and I’m listening...
January 3rd, 2012
Hello uglies! :) Right now, I’m supposed to be doing my Math ISU. But, I woke up late and I ended up watching some filipino movie with my mother dear. <3 OH, I just trimmed my bangs. They were pissing me off and my mom is being super lazy to bring me downtown to get my haircut. I don’t know if I should grow out my hair. :$ *Sigh* The life of being a girl. LOL, I don’t even...